• Impartiality —– Distance —– Coldness —– Justice

• Objective mind—– Criticism —– Being clever —– Insensivity

• Decision —– Intellect —– Analysis —– Realism —– Severity

• Responsibility —– Rationality —– Clear vision —– Logic and reason

                                    With every passing day I learn more & more, & it feels good to know that I , yeah that’s right me , I have the keys to my mind & I can unlock this gate anytime I feel, & flood my mind with a wealth of knowledge. Some people will look at this & with a closed mind, will say that I have lost my mind. Well if you know me, I have lost my mind a long time ago!! The Justice card, number eleven, with it’s sick design teaches me about having good balance in my life, only I can judge me, only I can pass judgement on those that allow me to hear their cases in this Kings Court. The bible says " judge not for ye one day will be judged " who really has the right to judge? I don’t judge because it’s not my place to tell you what’s right & what’s wrong, you will have to figure that one out yourself. Why in relationships we judge our lovers so badly? We all are human & we make mistakes that really don’t require judgement, it just requires a little understanding!! Me I consider myself a very open-minded person, at times a little too open-minded, but having a open-mind don’t mean that I don’t feel things that makes me want to say that you are wrong & I am right! I just choose not to do that because, what’s right for me, can be all bad for you in your mind so why would I try to change that!! I wish I could get the world to see things my way, but what fun would that be? Let people be who they gonna be, & you mite see that person for who they truely are! I feel like I am going through a mid-life crisis because my mind has open-up so wide that I see very clear now, the only problem I am having, is trying to get the people around me to understand that my thought process is very well put together! I wish growing-up I would had this clear train of thought that I have now, but since it’s did’nt happen that way, I call it Divine Justice. God will only give you what you are ready for! Now that my mind has caught up to my body, I even see it now,  that being exposed to a wealth of information,  I seem to better retain it now that I am a little more logical!! The Scale is for balance & the sword is for right action, I will argue that if you have right action, & balance, you will have justice!! Justice represents the understanding that life is ultimately fair and just. Even though the vagaries of day-to-day life tend to make us doubt this fact, Justice reminds us that there is divine balance. Nobody will ever understand what you see out your eyes, but just know that their are written & unwritten laws that govern the way Justice is handed out, so just know that, the justice I am speaking of, is the justice of your life, that if you balance the things in your life, & when you have trials & you make right action of the trials that you are going through, you will have justice, you will have justice that no judge can give you , you will have Divine Justice, this justice will provide that light that we all are in search of!~!

Kingtay I

                                              Round & round it goes, where it stops nobody knows. Well here we are again, at a time in life where truth shall set you free!! Where do I start? Who do I start with? Well the first thing I want to say is that the Queen is off limits, if you have something you want to say to me, say it to me!! I know you maybe a little upset about something that may have happen, but your beef is with me & not her!! I see & hear the things you both are saying but, you are the same two who’s back I use to knock-out not so long ago. If the Queen wants to hunt me down, then that’s her job, but you two were the same two who were crying in the middle of the night asking, am I still coming to your houses!! In your eyes she maybe a fool for me, but you two were also fools for me! (Can anyone say other-wise) Chaos I have told you once before you undercover ——— , don’t get to big for your pants , you are nothing to me & that’s understood, so don’t be a angry black woman about it. You got some dude all in your face now so be happy, or are you mad he’s not me. I don’t sell pipe dreams, I just know better then to deal with some stanky stank. Yeah baby your shit stank not to mention your ——–. You should’nt have to tell a grown women to take a bath!! Now on to Jade my first love, how did you get caught-up in this babygirl just let it go!  You mean more to me then Chaos because I have known you longer, so I won’t be as harsh, but that goes for you too! I mean if I wanted you, I would have you, but I did’nt go their cause I seen it going nowhere. I told you before you called that little stakin —– girl that she was good at choosen sides, now that you have open that door who side are you on. You don’t know her, so don’t pretent that you do, I am sure yall had a little male bashing speech about me, but I have only sweet things to say about you so don’t let it get ugly!!! Don’t fault me for having a mind of my own, the slightest thing you say to me clicks in my mind & the whole relationship changes, so I see you don’t call me anymore but don’t hate me because I don’t hate you!! It’s all Love Jade! Chaos I got your girl friend, How does that feel? I mean you took me to meet one of your friends & now you see with your own eyes the effect I have on people!! Are you mad? It’s not about you, so just enjoy you little dude you with, at lease I’m man enough not to run away when Conflict is coming!! You must understand why you are Confusion & I am Conflict!! Now go clean your underwear, I don’t know what I was thinking oh so long ago. I try to be open minded when it comes to looks but bitch you make me look bad as if I don’t have any standards when it comes to women. I have taken all the jokes about your ugly ass in stride, I made you feel better about yourself & this is the way you repay me, go fuck yourself you good at that!! I don’t get upset often but today is one of those days when I have got to free myself of all the bullshit around me. Today is the day of the "Wheel Of Fortune" let it spin you dizzy hooker, & go sell that thang for Daddy!! Well I guess I have said to much but last but not lease if my Queen calls again, be nice & keep it movin, but after this she won’t ever call you again because now she will know that I don’t talk to your stupit-ass!! Ask yourself why your friend won’t have a threesome with ya big nasty looking boyfriend. Ya’ll deserve eachother!! So who rolls stank the most?? Oh yeah you like to Quote songs so much finish this one for me. 

I think its time i made a song fo niggas who don’t know me
I graduated at the streets, Ima real OG
I been trappin shootin pistols since I stood on both feet
So while you niggas actin bad, you gon have to show me
You gone make me bring a chevy to a real slow creek
My niggas hangin out the window, mouth fulla gold teeth
When the guns start poppin, wonder when its gonna cease
Cap’ll hitchu on the side and create a slow leak
We been in the speculation cuz today we gone see
What’s the future of a pussy nigga hatin on me
I giva fuck about the feds investigation on me
I don’t care they at my shows and they waitin on me
Ima keep a flossy poppin long as to is on the beat
Tell police that I ain’t stoppin Ima keep it in the streets
Contrary to yo believes, im as real as you can be
Fuck yo thoughts and yo feelings nigga you don’t know me.

                                                 I sit sometimes & wonder do I have any feelings at all! Everytime I try to express the way I feel it’s just not the right time. Is my timing off? I mean when the feelings begin to rush forth, I seem to not be on the same page as the person I want to convey those feelings too. On the other-hand, this seems to always happen as well, I just wait to late to say what I truely feel & that person is not around anymore! Where’s the balance? I may at times move to fast, but more then often I seem to be slow-poakin around. I have found true love, & I can now say that I truely love myself, I am a good person regardless of what you may think of me!! You never understand people until they are not around anymore, then all the feelings of how things could have been made better comes back to your mind, & this makes you feel most times like you never really let that person go!! Take a close look into my eyes & let me know if you see any fear!! I am afraid of what I will do & I do get scared sometimes of what I won’t do, but most of all, I am afraid of myself, for the simple fact that I am a to myself, by myself type person & to much time to myself make me uneasy!! I’m really starting to wonder do I really love myself because alot of times I can’t be by myself at all!! I was watching "Good Will Hunting" last night, & it made me feel like I could relate to this dude who never been in love before & had this complex about people getting to close to him. In my mind, I feel like no-one is really willing to let you get to know them, & get all in to them as a person because, also like myself I feel like, the first feelings you get when you see a person are the feelings that you are always gone to feel & that’s not true!~! People have a mutitude of personalities that they are afraid to let go of!! I maybe the first to admit that, but you know it’s true!! Do you know how many people are inside of you? If you did would you be willing to be all of those people so we can really see who you are? I know who I am & I am afraid of people sometimes knowing who I am. I am not afraid to let a person know that I don’t know who I maybe from time to time, but just come along for the ride with me. I have said it before & I really mean it. You really don’t know people at all out here, it’s just a gamble!! A gamble that you take on people when you have things in common! I must say that I may sound a little silly saying this, but I know why I chose all the eccentric people to always be around or to have a relationship with!! In my eyes these people have a better understanding for who they are & what they want. All ya’ll so call normal people are just that, normal like your TV shows, very good carbon copies of what this world wants you to be. I don’t follow the crowd & the hardest question you could ask me is , what’s my type? My type is hard to explain, my type can’t be classified, my type won’t be subjected to think in the realm of your low thinking. I like smart women with a sense of knowing that they are unique by the standards set by your local media!~! I have for a while asked the question to myself about what I like in people & what keeps my attention, but all I could come up with is that I am the same person that I am looking for. I want someone who reminds me of me!! I want someone who could blend in anywhere. A classy woman, with a bitch of an attitude to deal with, a book smart woman, who can hold it down in the streets!~! Looks don’t have a place in my heart, it holds a place in my eyes & in my eyes you will lose yourself, because that’s how I judge looks, by that look in your eyes that you give me, by that feeling I feel when I lose myself in your eyes, by you knowing that I am lost in you & by the way you help me find my way to your heart!~! (Now that’s Beauty to me)  Let yourself go, what do you really feel in those times when you are alone, & nobody is their to help you to understand the thoughts you are having!~! Who do you turn to when asked the question that you are sure people want to ask you about you? Me, myself I don’t want anyone around me who can’t except my personality conflict, hell I’m willing to except all those people inside of you,  I would have it no other way. It really takes a strong person to be alone, me I am not that strong yet but I will have to be because my life is going through an out of body change!! My mind needs solitude, but my body needs you!!

Kingtay I

• Self control —– Being solid —– Patience —– Compassion

• Composure —– Stability —– Perseverance —– Moderation

• Kindness —– Gentleness —– Slowness —– Softness

• Serenity —– Comprehension —– Discipline —– Inner strength

                                                  Yesterday I looked into my sons eyes & we had a talk, He is only one years old, so we did’nt use any words, we had a silent conversation that had more meaning then any words anyone could say to me. He has a great understanding for the world around him. This morning I looked into his eyes & I asked him was he OK, & just as if having a talk with someone my own age, he said yeah, with the most peaceful look I ever saw in his eyes. From his eyes I have learned & got strength, I’m not weak he won’t allow that from his father!! I don’t care who you are in my life, what must be understood is that, that’s my dude!! I don’t have any male friends, so begining when he was a baby, all the while I would hold him I would always speak to him as if he was my best friend. When his mother was not around I would let him know that he had to be my best friend all the time. Now He looks at me as such at lease from my perception!~! I can tell when he is mad at me, I can see his little personality finding itself in a house full of women. Kingtay II will  very much be like his father in the ALPHA-MALE department, he loves to be in control of his surroundings, he’s a little guy now but I can only vision him as a young adult with the attitude of his father. (You women will have hell to pay!!) The Strength card is a card that is wrapped in Mystery. I have chosen this strength card because it reminds me of my son & I!! Most of the time you will see a women taming a lion as the card of strength, now this just the short version & now back to the story of the fool , well he is going on his way when in his path he hears a lion! He becomes very nervous as he gets closer to the sound but can’t see the lion!! As he gets closer to the sound, he see’s a lady with her hand in the lions mouth, & by sheer will alone she is opening & closing the lions mouth. So the fool asked the lady, How did she do that? Her answer was short & sweet!! WILL POWER!!                  Now even the unenlighten should know a little something about will power! The will of a person is really that strong that you can tame anything you want, life is all about taming the demons of your life! Now me I look at the card & begin to think of my life & I say that I am a gentle lion, but you can’t tame me!! You can just hope that our paths are the same, so we can travel in the same direction! I have been trying to be as open-minded as I can about the way I view how people just want control over you, so they can feel more like they have great will power to tame the wild beast in man. Will-Power should be use on a very mental level so that you tame your inner-self. I promised that I would’nt repeat this, due to the fact that someone told me that everyone would think me to be crazy. But really do I care what people think? (No)   Well I have been bragging for the last 22 days as of today!! That I Kingtay with great will power of the mind hypnotize myself, that’s right myself, to help me quit smoking cancer sticks. Well I am crazy as hell because it worked, I am day 22 no cancer sticks & no urges to smoke or buy them. Yeah that’s strange & I even gave myself a motto & the motto is that " if you block something out your mind for seven & threefold days (7+7+7=21 days)  you will free yourself from whatever was holding you back".   Well I have great Will power, so don’t try to tame me, try to understand me & life won’t be so hard, we all have will power but the question is what are you using your will for???

Will-power             determination and self-discipline: a combination of determination and self-discipline that enables somebody to do something despite the difficulties involved Kingtay I

                                                Today tears fill my eyes, but I can’t cry! The Lovers, lucky card number six, this card means exactly what it implicates! As far as the story goes about the fool, he has on his travels found someone he would like to give himself to for love alone. Today this card is a slap in the face, & right on time with  the path of the life of this fool. The same thing keeps happening to me when it comes to love & what I must endure to have love!! I hope you have time to read this, because this will be my best work, & the most emotions my heart can out pour all at once!! I feel the walls closing in around me as I search for someone with a carefree heart & mind to match my personality!! I Kingtay from the start of this life of love has put alot of dark spots in people minds & hearts when it comes to the subject of love! I know I am not a teenager anymore, but do people belive in love at first sight anymore or in love at all? I mean I surely can pickem! I always seem to find those who love me to much, & lose themselfs in me, or I lose myself in someone who don’t want love from me, all they want is the physical part of a relationship. Today I can say that I don’t think I belive in love anymore! I can’t go on like this any longer, trying to find something that I should just accept from those who really see me for me. When it comes to love I have lost a whole lot more then I have won! I have been in love ten times, give or take a few, with seven of those times ending in a bad outlook on life for me. Can anyone tell me the difference between meeting someone, you guys date for a year or two, ya’ll move-in together & things last for another year, and ya’ll split or you meet someone & instantly you realize that you can grow with this person, ya’ll move-in three months later, the relationship lasts for the same time frame as above? What’s the difference? In my eyes I see none, but also I see that the last situation is lot more exciting then the first!! What are you suppose to do when you meet someone & just fall in love with them & they not feel the same way you do? I know their are alot of things wrong with me & most of those things seem to do with my outlook I have on life, but I am human & I am blessed with human emotions, so I feel just like you do, but now I can say at lease I understand that you won’t feel the same thing that I feel because you are not me. All I want is Love & maybe you are not the one to fall in love with. I really want to cry right-now for reasons I can’t explain!! I’m hurt, happy, sad, lost, speechless, & confused all at the same time. I guess their is only one thing I can do & that’s find a deeper love for myself. I can’t love myself all that much if, I let the people that truely love me walk away from me because I don’t love them the same!! I should do something about that right!! I don’t know where to start, how many times can you say sorry before the meaning is lost? I feel like sometimes I have to make a fool out myself to see who’s the fool for me!! Who wants to feel like a fool? You have given up on me I know, but I want to fall in love with you all over again. The first day is all that matters to me! When I see something I want I go get-it, I use my instincts to find happiness. I have this King of the jungle mentality that has caused me much pain in the love department, but I can’t seem to shake this lion inside of me that leads me to all the dangers of love. I just want to say the hell with it all when it comes to anyone, I should say that I don’t care what anybody wants from me, give me what I want, & if you can’t comply then bye,bye!! I know that I am a hard person to deal with & most-likly I will kill all the birds on the line with that one stone of truth, but that’s just the way I feel right-now!! My heart is ripped into pieces, & I want to just scream at the top of my lungs until this pain subsides. I know I put people in bad situations when I truely express the way I feel, but I am just learning how to express myself! For along time, I just went with the flow of things, & whatever I got I must have deserved, because I did’nt complain I just went with it, but now my eyes are wide open to everything, & this has made me a little more receptive to my surroundings! Can I tell you the truth for a minute, the truth about it all is that I must be feeling something that is not their, I must have a defective radar!! I make alot of bad choices it seems when it comes to love, because I just can’t seem to get it right!! All I want from your heart is understanding, I am not trying to take advantage of your tender heart, but I want all your heart & not many are willing to give you all of their heart. I really could go on for days about how much pain I have caused people that loved me truely & all the pain that I am feeling right-now because the person who I want most of all think me undeserving! I know I am a good man, but who will make me a better man? Maybe I should’nt depend on a women to make me a better man. So why do I think that a women makes a man better? I’m glad i’m writing this so I can look at myself a little bit closer to understand, what am I thinking? You sit and cry, not because you are hurt about the way you feel about me, or the way I feel about you, you cry because you don’t want lose the best thing that ever happen to you in your life. I am Life for those that chose to shut the world out, but once expose to the world around you, you lose yourself in it without me! It’s always going to be someone who will be next in this triangle of love, but what ends the cycle? Is there anybody who can just take it for what it is. I would say no, because right-now the King has a confession!! I would like to confess that their is someone in the Kings life who really don’t want this King, I mean just as blunt as she could say it without making herself feel like a slut, she told this King she wanted nothing but a physical relationship!! Now maybe a few years back I would have just given her what she wanted & just knocked them guts in, but now that i’m all emotional & shit, I felt cheap as hell, unworthy of true companionship, is that how people really view me? Am I just a play toy for the lonely? Do I have anything to offer? Is she trying to get me out her face? All these thoughts within a minutes time ran through my mind & I wanted to throw-up!! I felt like I had just looked into the hearts of those people who I had taken a dump in their mouths, for tellin me that they loved me, & I did’nt understand why. Right-now I consider myself a nice guy, & I pay good attention to what I say to people, for the simple fact that I feel things now!! For along time I took things for granted because I could replace you in a hot second with no thought of you but see-ya, have a good one!  I got people right-now I know that I can call & say let’s work this out, & they would be willing but that would’nt be fair because I don’t love them in the same respect as they love me!! I would’nt be with someone who wants more then I could offer them. The end, last but not lease the story of the fool!!!!

Drawing the Lovers almost always means a choice will have to be made. This choice is usually of the variety that is between doing what "makes sense" and following your heart. The answer to this dilemma involves surrendering to God. Don’t be surprised if your well-laid plans are suddenly subject to change. The Lovers remind us that we cannot attain our full potential with our conscious, rational mind alone. We must marry it to our subconscious, representing our emotions and intuition.The Fool comes to a cross-roads, filled with energy, confidence and purpose, knowing exactly where he wants to go and what he wants to do. And comes to a dead stop. A flowering tree marks the path he wants to take, the one he’s been planning on taking. But standing before a fruit tree marking the other path is a woman. He’s met and had relationships with women before, some far more beautiful and alluring. But she is different. Seeing her, he feels as though he’s just been shot in the heart with cupid’s arrow, so shocking, so painful is his "recognition" of her. As he speaks with her, the feeling intensifies; like finding a missing part of himself, a part he’s been searching for his life long. It is clear that she feels the same about him. They finish each others sentences, think the same thoughts. It is as if an Angel above had introduced their souls to each other. Though it was his plan to follow the path of the flowering tree, and though it will cause some trouble for him to bring this woman with him, to go somewhere else entirely, the Fool knows he dare not leave her behind. Like the fruit tree, she will fulfill him. No matter how divergent from his original intent, she is his future. He chooses her, and together they head down a whole new road.

Kingtay I

Kingtay I

                                              Have you ever saw something that made you view life & the people in your life a little differently? Made you think with all your mind because it reminded you of you!!  Today I have a better understanding about the journey my life is on, thanks to just a little learning about Tarot Cards. Althought this may sound strange to most, but the story of the Major Arcana of the Tarot cards spoke to me like it was writen just for me & the path that my life is taking day by day. The first card is numbered 0 called the fool & it don’t mean what the general meaning of what fool means, but today I feel like a fool, but I will clear that up later! I will give you apart of the story of the fool!

The Fool is unmoulded potential, pure and innocent, neither positive nor negative yet containing the possibility of both. He is the unconditioned soul about to come into manifestation for the first time to start learning the lessons of the world. Though everyone calls him a Fool, he does not pay them any attention, and he simply goes on his way. Certainly what they say can be justified, since his ignorance of the world can lead him to do things that more experienced people would never imagine. But in these things he can find knowledge and enlightenment. He does not care what others think or say about him, because he knows that what he is doing is right for him.

Well that’s just the short version of the story of the first card the fool, I’m not going to put the whole story on the page, you can do you own homework. Today is a good day to let the world know that I am not a fool! I do consider myself a late bloomer because of the path my life has taken until now. Today I am 31 years old with the thoughts that I am just starting to live my life the way I see fit, now that may make me the fool!! Most of the time I feel that if I could have explored my imagination of the world a little earlier, I would be a better man by now. My life has not been all that bad if I may say so myself, I have been places that most of you can only dream of, I have seen things with these eyes that most of you only have seen in television shows, so my world is builded on the reality of all the wisdom that I have gotten from real life. That’s why I’m strange in my own little way, I am a humble person with a King like attitude!! Yeah I am rude as hell when you try to take me for a FOOL! Sometimes I am very curious of the way that people view me. That’s been the burning question that I have been racking brain about lately!! I remember the Jaded one saying that she saw Greatness in this King & I will never stop loving her for that statement alone, now my Queen on the other hand, as long as she has known me, has not expressed to me in no-way what she see’s in me at all, it’s like having a very telepathic relationship with someone, baby-girl that’s why I am so distance, I understand words better!! I being a man of sound body & mind now with full understanding of myself declare that in no way in this present day will I ever be a fool again! I have passed being a fool, & if you know me, this is the question that I have been asking people for the last three months? Do you belive in magic? Well now that it’s out there, this brings me back to the Tarot cards & how they just spoke to me like they did! The next two cards in the Tarot is the Magician #1 & the High Priestess #2! Now that’s the strange part to me because I just started to research Tarot cards last week & if you have been reading my blog, you would see that the Preistess has came into my Path already!! As strange as I am begining to sound , we all have a little something in us that lets us predict what’s coming next in our life, that’s what got me interested in Magic. Not your first thought of magic, like making a penny disappear, but the thought of tapping into myself, to find all the answers about myself, learn about others, & what’s coming next in my life, with only the natural science of my mind. So today I proclaim that I am on my way, to travel the path that all great minds have traveled to find them-selfs & find that hidden something that lies inside all of us if only you will it to be. So today I am the Magician, with my mind firmly on the path ahead, so if you disagree with me or the way my life is going disappear, save us all the trouble of trying to figure out what you want,  I know what I need & want in my life, I need Magic!!

Kingtay I

                                               With all my heart, I will give you what you need, now do the same for me, give me what I need for the sake of all man-kind! Your time is running out & their is nothing you can do about it. Gracefully bow-out, keep your self respect! Once people see that they have lost all control, that should be a sign that, time is running short & out. Why do we try to control the uncontrolable? You sit & watch every move I make trying to see what I will do next, well now is a good time to know that, even I don’t know what I am going to do next. I can’t even predict, or let alone give a brief account of what I even manifest in my mind, time to time. I am a free spirit , with alot of love to give, I am so sorry that I wont be like other men & lie , say everything’s find, I won’t cheat , I won’t look at another women as long as I have you. That’s a bunch of nonsense, & it’s time that most women understand that you can have it two ways when it comes to men! 1) He can lie to you about how faithful he is to you, make every thing in your mind Ok until he don’t come home at night, or 2) He can tell you the truth & tell you of all his great adventures of stealing anothers heart with no hard feelings, on your behalf. I know that this is a hard thing for most people to swallow, but take a good swig, feel that smooth taste going down! Most women say that they want the truth, but when the truth is told, what do you do with it? Do you take it at face value? Accept the facts of what was said, move on, have a good relationship, or do you hold it up in the air as if waving a flag that you don’t let down? It’s real hard for people to talk to each-other in relationships, so why shut him or her out when they decide they want your listening ear? Women & Men alike ask for alot in relationships, but in all relationships you must compromise, find some middle ground that you can all agree on! I King would like to say that I have found my middle ground about what I will take , what I will except, & what I will put up with!! You don’t have to understand me to love me , but you have to respect what’s going on. I don’t have to understand you to love you, but understanding is the key that unlocks the door to that world of that unknown person you say you in love with. Yeah my thoughts about it is that you never know anybody!! It’s alot of women around the Atlanta area, who say I have that man understood down to a science, but that man is a undercover pansy, who would ever think? The same go for the women around here also, who tell that man that they so called in love with, that’s my sister & them folks are of no relation, but them folks having relations. Now explain that with reason in your heart? You can’t, you try to block it out of your mind as thought it don’t exsist, it never happen , that they lying on you right baby? As King I am pass all that fake activity you try to give me, all that damsel in distress you try too pass off as if I did’nt know any better! I won’t feel sorry for you, I’ll just let you know that, your time is up, or sometimes I won’t let you know nothing at all, I will just walk away with no hard feeling of the fact, that you thought that I was just one of those other dumb men you meet on a regular basis, that I can’t see with the eyes I was givin or don’t have any common sense at all. I am a triple threat when it comes to how smart I am!!! You may not like my train of thought, some say I’m way out there, but you must admit, I don’t miss much! I watch everybody & everything! So after the so call love is gone, you can still call me , we can still talk like we married or still going out together, but what you must understand is that, when it comes to us , their is no-more, I maybe your fool today but tommorow will come & I will be twice as smart as I was yesterday. You got to get up pretty early in the morning to know how my day is going to go! You have to commune with the God’s to see the brainwave patterns of this complex mind I hold dear to my heart. Don’t for a second ever think that I will fall out of love with you! I won’t give you my love then take it back, as if we had nothing, but I will look at you alot differently, with no anger in my heart , just more & more love for myself!! Could it be any other way?

Kingtay I

                                                  Lately, I’ve been feeling like I am worth more pain then I am pleasure. Physically I will send your body to another world, but mentally I will have your mind in a state of Chaos!! That’s not me, that’s not who I am or even what I want to be!! I don’t need any confused people around me right-now for the sake of my own mind! Everyday I affirm what I denied, to make myself understand myself & make myself as mentally strong as possible. In-turn that’s seems to give the false impression the I am too head strong & unstable as a friend because I think of no-one but myself. I must admit that I can be a very hard person to take at times, but if given the chance, I am worthy of your most inner-most thoughts. I love getting close to people not to run away from them but to have them run to me. That’s the very strange part about me, because I think that when & if meet someone they should be as honest & up-front with me as I with them. I also must admit that it has taken me a little time to get into the honesty grove of things. Today I sit with ear-plugs in my ears trying to hear my most inner-most thoughts to give to someone who won’t open-up to me! So let’ try this, a little poem or short story!!  

I AM WORTHY!!!!!!                         

 I am worthy of your most sacred trust, I know it’s hard for you to understand that I am even intrested in your most private of thoughts but I am. I am worthy of your feelings, & of the way I want to make you feel, no women in the world deserves more then you to feel like her day was spent in heaven. I am worthy of just you, I mean all of you, to what great extent will you let me go? At what point will you tell me I can go no further? I am worthy of your heart, I know it can be a hard thing to give away, but what if I guard it with my life, will that be enough? I am worthy of your kiss, I mean could it be any other way, so sweet, so soft that chills is the only thing that can describe the feeling of kissing your lips. I am worthy of last but not lease of your love, everyone needs love & needs to give it away, how else would you understand what you want out of this life.

Ok that’s it, I just needed to get that off of me to make me feel a little better about what’s going on around me. I really can’t call it right-now, but I am lost. I am at a lost for words, at a lost of feelings, but I can’t let that stop me & lose myself. I have said it once & I will say it again,  this blog is for me, for me to release alot of hidden things that I hold most sacred in my mind. My mind is going to cause me alot of pain & it has, so I’ve found out, but I dont want to shut myself down so I can say that I am a simple type person & I don’t take things into my soul. Everyone is not worthy of all of you & I understand that with all my heart, but what I don’t want to do is keep myself in this shell that I call my mind & hide it from someone I want to be close too. I look at people & I see people that’s it. I see their everything, althought I may not view you in the same way you view yourself in the mirror, I see you in the way of what I need for me in my life at the time. As strange as that may sound, it don’t change the way I view what’s in my mind at first glance. I mean, I want to think that I am a simple person but my complex mind sends my mind into a overdrive of emotions that run threw me when you look at me with those eyes of your’s. I just think I was tought a little wrong or something is very wrong with me as a person because I look into people eyes & I really think that they see my soul.

One Question, Why In All Or Most Egyptian Hieroglyphs You See Alot of Eyes? What did these people of mystery know about the eyes? Whats the hidden meaning of the eyes that they understood? Ok that’s more then one question!!!!

Kingtay I

                                           Bow-down before your King!! Today is a good day, today one of my most loyal subjects will be Knighted before this court. This King is most proud of the progress that you have made, but upon reading a letter sent by you, I King was at a lost for words. But after much trial & error, hell for the last two days my computer has been acting-out, so it made me think am I suppose to write this at all. I think I should, you have been warned, Oh yeah you gone get-it!! Well where do I start, first let me say I love you, I think you know I love you, I Kingtay infront of my most loving Queen & yourself explained how much I love you, to put everything on the table. The time that we have spent was not in vain but what was in vain to me was the way you agreed to support me from afar. Now that hurt, that made me look at you a little differently. Were you really my friend?? The whole time althought in a state of confusion waiting for my little Prince to be born, I spent that time getting to know you! I don’t want you to think that I am upset but this should explain why I just stepped away. To think you would let me Dishonor myself to make you happy is besides me. Why do I meet all the only children or women with the only child syndrome?  I don’t understand you, try to compare me to another & it’s hard. I am one of a kind!! I heard what you saying about me & it aint cool but that don’t upset me, but to not tell the whole story is another story within itself. That upsets me!! The title of this is My First Subject so let me explain with fire in my heart. I RAISED YOU so don’t get to big for your shoes. I gave you game so don’t overstep bounds. I am King, you Crowned me as such & I can’t take that away from you, but remember I am King & you know why, I even showed you how that little thang in between you legs work, so don’t be disrespectful. You know every inch of me & I every inch of you so like I said yesterday you gone take this whippin with a grain of salt! How could you even fix your mouth to say ugly things about me when I gave you the love that I had reserved for another. That’s right things did get out of control & now you can’t seem to control your mouth. If I make you so unhappy then why all the concern? Ok I’ll stop now I have said to much but just remember the deal no hard feelings!!!

So bow-down, today and from now on you will be my Knight of the burning heart. I love the fire of your soul!!!

Kingtay I

                                         This morning absolute music ruled my mind. The rhythm of your heart provided an acoutic beat of love for the atmosphere. You may not understand me well but after this, your soul will sing acappella to a twelve-tone musical scale while I touch your skin with precision as my only means to tune your body. Damn I’m good!! If I may say so myself, but today & everyday from now on I will be that prelude that will provide rhapsody to the one I sarenade with serialism. That’s right baby you gone need a dictionary to understand the way my heart is on a sanft run of programed music from your sweet lips to the oblique motion of your key signature hips. Today this music drama is just starting all over again, so if you think I’m crazy now’s your time to say so!! The sweet symphony tone of your voice provides me with all the monothematic nocturne that I will need in life-time, so why must we subject our-selfs to an adagio tempo. I once told you I was an artist, do you belive me now. I may not be that good with a paint brush, or even the best yet with my hands resting firmly on the piano of your heart, but if you give me a chance to romance these words that I have build inside this strange mind of mines, I will give you music, I will give you music that will provide an anthem for your augmented soul. I some how get a kick on how strange I can be, but it aint no thang, I know I’m sane. You know it to that’s why you want me around, I provide binery form to your most intermost song forms. You make my heart sing a votive when I’m near you, you make my ears root position everytime I hear you. I speak of you in my dreams, as if the orchestration of my mind you can hear in your sleep. But don’t say anything just smile & know that this is the way I felt today, like my heart was filled with Music.

Kingtay I

                                                  Close your eyes, do you hear that? Welcome to my mind!! What do you want from me? I ask this question with love in my mind & anger in my heart. You ask me to be honest with you & I have done that, all I want is for you to understand me. How come when it’s time for me to speak my truth, you turn a deaf ear! Why must you be this way? What’s wrong with you? Matter of fact what’s wrong with me? I ask you time & time again what do you want from me? You give no words to indicate in what direction you want me to go. You say that when I write, you understand what I’m talking about, well how is it when I speak to you in your face we don’t see eye to eye on the words that I try to impress on you from my soul. My heart is all your’s if you want it, but my mind is all mine, but I will share it with you if you let me or if you want me to. I just don’t want to lie anymore I am a new man, I want to be all that you need & all that you hoped for in a life time, but most of all I don’t want to mislead you. I love you my Queen & you mite not see how deep my love runs for you, but I will kill & die for you. Can you at lease see that I can’t see my world without you. This is personal but you don’t hear me unless I’m not there in your face!! I really don’t understand what’s going wrong between us, we have a grave break-down in our communication to each-other, but know this & know this well. I found out that you were a great investigator, so I stopped all that sneaky shit, with the hopes of being a better man & a more honest man. I for the sake of my own mind, just wanted to be as up front with you as I can be, but more & more you make me see that this don’t seem to be enough. Do you love me? Sometimes I don’t know, What did you really fall in love with? Maybe you should try a little truth of your own to see what you really want!! If it’s me that’s fine, If it’s not me that’s cool to, but just note that we will always be apart of each-others lives for the sake of the little Prince. I may be doing alot of rambling in the letter to you but it’s time for you to sit down & really hear what I got to say. You read most of the things I write & think some how it’s about you. Well baby I must inform you other wise that this is the first attempt in this letter alone that I have made to reach you & only you. I write from my heart, speak from my mind & most of all It’s has nothing to do with you, this blog is for me to understand me & what I see. Maybe I should have never gave you the address if you were going to judge me. I tell everybody that I care anything about, you can’t judge me. You are not my God, you are my Queen, & you should act according. What’s your place? You are my ever-loving sprit of life, your job is to make life worth living everyday. That’s what you are suppose to provide for me, I love all the small things you do for me like, your cooking, a clean house, ironed & clean clothes, but what you have not provide is a stable sense of mind for me. Now let me explain, I being a well spoken thug if I may say so myself have a great need for mental understanding. It’s like casting a spell on the one you love. You must understand that the one you hold most dear to your heart at no time you are apart. It’s a mental connection that I long for in my world, the sort of understanding that let’s me end you statements for you & vice-versa. I have tried to let you in but you don’t want to travel passed my heart. Come into my mind, my love, I welcome you with open arms. That’s the only way to get close to me is threw my mind. My love making is mental because belive it or not I have to make you cum all in your pants before I touch you. If that don’t sound crazy then I don’t know what does. A mental connection that holds me accountable for what’s wrong in your heart of hearts. I once told you that I wish I had met you alot earlier in my life and maybe I would be a different man by now. Do you even know that I think the world of you? You are my world so why don’t you come into my world? How can you live in a house with someone that you are afraid to get close to? What sense does that make? What do you want me to do? I mean their are plenty willing to take the trip with me to the odyssey of my mind, but I did’nt marry them I married you so it’s your job my Queen! You can’t begin to question anybody about the relationship I have with them until you anwser a few questions yourself. Think about it!!!

Kingtay I

                                             Mercy, Mercy, I say . I have had enough, about all that I can take without wanting to hurt you or myself. Like a great King once said, can’t we all just get along.((HA-HA)) Now none of that made any sense to me. So moving on!! This King has been charged with felony selfishness of the heart. Well I guess , I would say that I don’t see it that way at all. My plea will be not guilty, but most in my court will disagree. I can be a little one sided at times, with the way that I veiw things & how things really are. Sometimes I get so caught up in my own thoughts that I won’t hear your’s at all, but selfishness is not a thing that I claim to fame about. Born under the earth sign of Virgo, my feet stand firmly upon earth, the ground work of my life’s plan. What’s the plan? Not to be complacent & be as easy going as I can be, without letting my ever changing mind get in the way. I have , I mean really have, been trying to work on my focus, & that goes for all the aspects of this life that I’ve been granted. Like always though, being a mental person I think to much. I see things that are not there, & sometimes I’m way off the charts when I should just relax & not look so deep into something that’s so simple. If I may say so myself, without offending the most loving Queen I ever had, I have as King been in the company of another. Nothing that my Queen should be worried about! This Princess I will call her, has embrace this King as one of her own, has givin my ever evolving mind much knowledge about myself as King, to help me make myself a better King. I may walk with head high like any King does or should do, but I Kingtay am not afraid to admit that I suffer from the same self esteem problems that the rest of the masses suffer from. So I guess that’s why I don’t understand this charge of selfishness!! Yes it’s true I am guilty of foul negligence of others feelings, but I only do what’s best for my own pride. Accuse me of having great pride & you got me! That’s all I will confess to!! Once their was a Jaded Queen who by her own definition of her name verb wise performed all kinds of mental olympics on this King that made me fold under the pressure of myself. No disrespect to the Jaded one who I met as a young Prince years ago, Jade provided my mind with much ecstasy, with her blissful charm & caring eyes, but her approach put a flag of caution in my mind, although any man would feel King-like under her control. But this Princess whose words speak venom that start at my brain & moves threw my vains has awaken something hidden in my soul that I can’t explain. Her eyes are as gentle as a Priest, maybe I should call her the Priestess because of her demeanor. But her mind has got me at a lost for words. Some people, like myself are confusing in their speech toward another, but not a problem with my Priestess who has for once thought this King that things will not be his way at all. Very much my type in every sense of the word, just what I like the three B’s.       1)Beautiful mind. 2)Beautiful body 3)Beautiful soul,  My Triad of love!!   She has or I should say, got my nose wide open because I feel that she won’t give herself to me like most women I meet. But like most women, she likes to play mind games to see what a King is made out of . To be honest I just want to be her friend, her friendship is of more importance to me then her physical body rightnow. To be a man I know that sounds strange, but it’s my way rightnow. I King don’t have time to provide any kind of pleasure for anothers body without the soul of that body to go with it. I’ve always been the type to go for the heart when I deal with people but this just feels different to me. It could be the trials in my world, that got me a little on the gentle side when it comes to this Priestess, but I refuse to cross the line this time for the sake of my own heart. I see caring of heart in my Queen, perfection in Jade, & the words of a eternal God in my Priestess. If this sounds funny to you imagine how I feel! Out of three women I can tell you what I love about them, but it’s all different effects of love that I feel for them. I would die for my Queen without a second thought, but to her I’m selfish because we don’t see eye to eye about the other above mention women. So like the picture that’s at the top of the page, I stand high & I stand strong in my convictions, so don’t try to make me see things your way. I have my own way on how I see things, so if that makes me selfish, I’m selfish I am that I am!!

Kingtay I

Beauty, the quality that gives pleasure to the mind or senses and is associated with such properties of form color, excellence of artistry, truthfullness, and originality. This is the book definition of Beauty. How about that? As King I see Beauty in a whole different way, with no bad comments to what most books say about Beauty. Beauty to me has nothing to do with the way my eye views your exterior, althought what you see with your eyes affects the mind at all times. The beauty of the mind is all that matters to me, matter of fact the definition did speak of giving pleasure to the mind. ((I feel that)) If you ever met me , saw me in passing the question you would most likely asked me is. What are you looking at? I am what most women call a looker, kinda scary for most women who have not had that in their lifetime. Being a looker, now what the hell does that mean? Well I don’t even know sometimes, but it has to do with so I’ve heard about the intense way that I look at & pierce those little windows to your soul. Intense eye contact affects the brain a whole hell of alot more then looking at your breast, you legs , or your butt, so I’ve learned! ((Unless you are a freak)) I love it because words don’t always speak the same as the eyes in most cases & in most cases it will cause a person to not like you at all or fall head over hills in love with you with out any kind of touching at all. ((I like those odds)) Well now I feel like I must at lease say a comment on the book definition on just one word, & that word is Truthfulness. To me that is the best word that this definition of Beauty offers besides mind. Is it not a sign of Beauty to look into the eyes of another & find the soul of their Truthfulness as they sit before you? Beauty is in the eye of the beholder. How many times in life are you going to hear that? ((My guess alot)) Most try but it’s hard to bullshit me, my eyes have been trained a little differently, so to make this as complex & simple as I can, most times I dont see what you talking about. It’s like I have a bullshit radar, so if you are saying something to me, but your eyes don’t match what you are talking about, most likely you will hear me say, I missed that! Now if you are reading this blog you may say that damn he has said that alot. Well you lie alot!! That why it is so much beauty in the eye of the beholder! If I was Blind, the Beauty would lay somewhere in the way that I perceive sound. But since I’m not blind. I see very well if I may say so myself. ((Glasses do help))  So today I sit high on the Throne of this Kingdom , with Beauty as one of those words from the tree of life that I understand & will explore until the death of me or until I rid myself of all the ugly that’s around me.((Now that was not nice)) So try it for a year or two, try looking at people in their eyes when they’re talking to you or even when they are not talking to you. See for yourself the Beauty of the eyes that unlock the keys to the soul of another. May God grant you Mercy in your trials, because most people can’t stand it, makes most people feel that you have invaded their personal space. Beauty the word of the day that has as many meanings as your mind can conjure up.

Kingtay I

Simple Or Complex? This question has been pose to the King. Me I feel that I am a simple man with a complex mind. We all try to look into the eyes of another to see what they are thinking. I King have tried but has come up with nothing but confusion. So I don’t try anymore because I did’nt like living in a world of confusion. Some of us are blessed with a gift of that kind of sight but, ninty-five percent of the masses are not equiped with that kind of knowledge. My speech is a different story I must confess, complex most say about the way I talk, it’s always in riddles. Everything to me has a hidden meaning, so I speak this way to express myself if that makes any sense to you at all. If it don’t I really don’t care. I have read many books that are imbedded in my mind, so for someone to not understand me seems to me to be a big misunderstanding in my eyes. With one K.I.S.S I try to (keep-it-simple-stupit) so that I won’t have any problems in my life but, for my gift to be taken out of context, the gift of having an imagination makes me upset because unlike most, I never got to explore the depths of my imagination as a child. A little background this King grew-up poor, no father so at a very young age I had to be the man of the house, so that left no room for what most kids call fun. I Played sports to pass the time away but school had no effect on me or to say the lease it was boring, because I am one of those people who think they know everything. Universal knowledge is a gift from God that we all have, so if you don’t know what I mean do your homework. I am bitter so if you feel this in my words, then you are right. Even the people that you would lay your life on the line for, can’t see out the box that they have created for themselfs. I am a different kind of man I know that, but that’s what makes me special. Matter of fact, that’s what makes me King. This Kingdom stem from the Kingdom of my IMAGINATION that’s my reality. Did I say it to fast for you? A dreamer I have always been but my perception is the only reality I know,& only reality I can express. Along the way I have learned plenty of tricks to get the job done with less efford, but you don’t want to hear about that right? You finding how my mind works would take you to depths under the ocean floor. Ok a little experiment for the sake of your own mind, I will give you a piece of me, a piece of this Universal Knowledge that will make you just except people for who they are, not what they look like or not even what they say out their own mouths. That’s simple enough right? At a very young age I was told that things are not always what they seem. I’m sure you have heard the same thing. The SIMPLE vase you saw at the top of this page is so simple right just a wooden vase with perfection in the grain. Well I put the same vase at the bottom of the page so that you can look at it again. This simple vase enters into my complex mind. Guess what, I see two faces. Look hard or dont look so hard. I see the Duality of Man, now that’s just my mind being complex. Do you get it now my love? Step back take a deep breath, things are never what they seem. Look at the big picture, not just the small one.

KINGTAY I

Warlord,

Today I woke up but when I stepped outside, I could feel the sun bounce against my skin like no other feeling I have ever had or ever felt before in my life. Today feels strange,my mind feels light, almost like I can touch the heavens. I’m really searching. I’m really trying to understand everything around me good & bad. I sit sometimes and watch KingtayII, in his every move, in his every thought, because I truely think & feel with all my heart that I am in view of a God. The child I willed, the child I love, is teaching me much more about life & God then any book ever known. I watch with a eye of concern when he falls, when he speaks my ear is attentive to every sound he utters. This fills my heart with Pride, this makes my life all the worth while. I write this in expression to the Glory of the little God’s in this world that makes Man, Men & what makes the women the mother of the earth. By the way I want or do live my life some would seem to think that I don’t have any respect for women. Respect is all about what you think about it, because what’s disrespectful to you may be something that don’t affect another. Me I do right by others or at lease I try to. I never want to hate & If I ever told you, I love you it’s because I do , they are not just words to me. My love is strange, My love is strong. Their is something OMNIPOTENT about the love that I do give. In my everyday a new LOVE comes & goes in one breath & out another. Does that make me mad? (When I say mad I mean crazy) I was put on this earth to give love & to never take it away unless you dont want me to have it anymore. You can’t JUDGE me, because you don’t see out my eyes. You can only, if you are lucky, hope to understand what’s in these eyes of mine. Understanding, the biggest misconception in the world. What do you really understand besides yourself? The inner workings of anothers mind is so complex that science has givin up & left you to figure it out on your own.. Everyday I dig more & more into my mind, only to know that sometimes I have traveled to far & that I must return home to this earth I live in that I call my body. My job is so boring that I don’t have nothing but time to read books about things that intrest my ever evolving mind. The more I learn the happier I seem to be. The more I write the better I can express myself. I’ve always had a way with words but you never heard them, my MAGIC took you away to a place you never seen before, you were so trap in your own thoughts that you never heard mind. People see what they want to see, & who can argue that fact? You may think you know me, but you truly don’t. You only know what you want to know or what I’ve showed you about me. This is going to sound stange, but take a look at the people in your life & figure out , what they are not tellin you about themselfs & then you will view the world a little differently. Things will seem as strange as things seem to me in this world of minds. Yes we stay on Earth, but every person you pass has their own unique world or earth in their mind. I am in a world of my own some may say & so are many of you. But who will admit it ? Who will dare stand strong & wise & admit that this world of my mind is unbreakable, unshakeable, & untameable? None of you, But do you want to know why? Because you are more concern with what others think then what you think yourself…………………………………………….

May God Grace Me With Mercy

For I Know NOT What I Do

                                                                        Kingtay I

The symbolism of crowning a man King, is that he, resembling
God (on earth), has reached the lowest strata of his sub-consciousness, which predominate as governing his functions. (Of course, those crowned Kings are never such, they symbolise the "hope," not the reality.) Hence the floral nature of and precious stones in design of the crown relate to first principles.
He is King who has reached the dual principle in its simplicity, the
first experience which is all experience .  .  .  .  he has no need of
crowns and kingdoms.
I have never denied my invincible purpose. Oh,
silent watcher, thou sleepless eye of the Universe, watch over the
beginning of all my ideas. The misery of the world would seem eternal,
whilst I, in the midst, like an infant not yet smiling, am impervious
in purity , but I dare not claim its service! I am in
eternal want of realization, poor though I be, my contentment is
beyond your understanding. An opinionist, I fear to advocate an
argument, or compromise myself by believing my own doctrines as such .
May they ever be their own expurgers! Fearsome of knowledge,
may my belief be its emptiness, yea, ignorance! From my daring to
believe religions, doctrines, creeds, so shall I hold the jewel of
truth. So am I, simultaneously do I deny that which I affirm,
and hold fast to the "not-necessity, I revert to the Absolute, watch my
intoxication and control- the reaction of Karma. How easy is the Way,
it would seem as though nothing should be said but all unsaid! May my
words be few and pregnant! Alas, the futility of the idea of God has
not yet reached its limit, all men liars, appear striving for insanity
as its climax: while I alone as one prematurely aged, reason tottering
on its throne, remain sane, in positive chastity, confessing no
conscience, no morals- a virgin in singleness of purpose.
                                      
                                                                           A.O.S.

My life, as easy as it has been, feels a lot harder to live, then it is to talk about. My love forever growing stronger, makes me feel weak because I have nobody to let the ways grow with. To some this may all sound like some bullshit, but to those who know me, I mean those who really know me, they know that I am hurting. I have only one soul to give, so in turn that makes me selfish. I live life with only one law in mind, thats SELF PRESERVATION, that is what controls the time and space that we spend and have spent together. I can control everything around me to ensure that I don’t get hurt. But one thing that I have not been able to learn is how not to hurt myself. Self the only true friend and enemy ever known, has caused me the greatest pain I will ever know. My heart while at war with my mind has made me understand that their is no true way to understand the gift and power that THE HEART WILL GIVE AND TAKE AWAY. My mind while forever watching, has no tactical means for the HEART  who is hard at work, with love as it’s number one goal. Some may trick themselfs into thinking  that LOVE will concur all. I have tried to tricked myself into thinking that my mind can over power my heart. Everyday I live this way, I kill off the best part of me little by little.To those who have ever heard my voice and looked into my eyes, stood still enough to let me touched their hand, they understand. Not that I am full of myself, but to be honest  I am blessed with a gift that I feel could only come from the MOST HIGH….

TO MY SUBJECT, WHO THIS SUBJECT IS NOT ABOUT, NO NEED TO HIDE ANYMORE IT’S TIME YOU COME OUT. LET IT BE KNOWN WHATS REALLY GOING ON !!! NO MORE TEARS I WANT YOUR JOY,  WHO WILL CAST THE FIRST STONE?

                                                                  YOUR MAJESTY,

                                                                 KINGTAY               

The Voice Chasing Me

I found the voice, the one chasing me for oh so many years.
The voice disrupting my disrupted heart
with whisperings of a better Way.

Just the Way of All Awakening,
the Way of each soul
on earth.

As the sun sets on the horizion, life takes a turn to the south where the sun shows it’s luster. I sit in my chambers, my mind on the people that makes life worth living. My life for whatever it’s worth has been nothing but pain, that I seem to hide from the masses. I smile at the Queen to show her that I am alright, but am I really alright? I start to cry to release my mind,I start to cry to release my soul, mostly I feel that my God has not reveal my true lifes plan, so this pains me. Have you ever heard that we are a product of our producers? From the begining I realized that wearing this crown made me feel as if I didn’t belong. I am the King, some may say of the known world, but that’s where the mistake is made, I am King of a world that you have no idea about. Master of my fate to the point where I have no regard for others only myself and my KIngdom. Does that make me selfish? I don’t think so I just know what I want, and I know how to get it. Some of the choices that we make in life are pure animal like. But are we not animals? Why do most women call men dogs? Is you King really a dog? I sit sometimes and wonder how the Queen views me! Did she marry for love or because our union was prearranged? With every moon that rise, the more I feel none understand me but my Queen. I will give parts of me to others, but only the parts that I want them to have. Some love me for my mind, some love me for the fact that they just met royalty. Today I have found a part of my true self, apart that I will reveal to the masses right now!! To live my life as I truely want to, I want to renounce my Kingship to someone who is more deserving then I am, I have tried to be a good King but everyday it becomes a harder job. My Queen and I will take high ground to ward off attacks and to provide protection to the new King my son, who I love dearly.

I CROWN HIM,

KINGTAY II

When the masses speak of him I pray it’s with affection and love!!!

until we meet again,

KINGTAY I