The Reason I Am
Today overwhelm with emotions about the love of my life, right-now I need you to understand the way I feel, I can’t help but feel like my life is ending, I have a slight touch of a panic attack subsiding in my heart.. You see the smile on my face, well for once I can’t smile, I seem to have let my emotions get the best of me today, & I miss my son with a feeling that I can’t even understand.. I wanted nothing more from this world, but for my name sake to be apart of my everything, well if you wanted to hurt me then here you go, I am hurting!@! I have this picture next to the bed, & everyday I look into those eyes of the most loving Prince in the world!~ Today I will expose myself to the world, hoping that you all will embrace my tears of my son, with the thoughts that I am no less of a King! I cry as I write this, something has been taken away from me, I think that it is for all the pain that I have caused another! I truely understand myself, & now I understand that you, my child are hurting too!~ I never meant to cause any pain to someone who does’nt understand these feelings of neglect that I am showing with the help of a most cruel teacher, love!! My son is the only thing that keep me sane, & you want to keep him away from me for what reason!~ I will never harm a hair on his head, & I will never expose him to nothing but a loving enviroment!! I really have been at a lost of words lately, now I know why!~ I miss my son !~ This trip to my soul is not worth missing the best, & only part of my life!! Well, my son when you get old enough to read this, I want you to know first, I apologize for all the pain that I have caused you, & the Queen but my life is another direction, I need you, I need you my child, to understand that your father wants to be your life, I can’t live for your mother, but I can live for you… So if you read this my Queen, you should know that I am falling apart at the seems about my child!@ I want to explain my reasons, but you won’t understand!~ Just know that you have gotten what you wanted, a hurt King!~!@
DEAR SON
Dear Son, If I could I would change your world for you~ I’d turn the key and set you free, to play on earth’s green land with me Dear Son, If I could I would take your hand and flee We’d ride the clouds, and slide on rainbows~ laughing with eternity Dear Son, There’s not a single day, and not a breath I take~ when you are not on my mind, within the days that I partake Dear Son, If I could I would give your dreams the key~ I’d take your weary place instead, with your hand reaching out to me. Dear Son, We can, and we will take heart, for there is Someone who is near, indwelling in your life too, not asking I exchange with you
Kingtay I
