Testing Love
Note this, I watch your every move, I hear the tone in your voice each time you speak to me! I heard the way you inhale & exhale when you are angry! I feel things from deep within, to let me know how you’re feeling! This testing of love to me, is what love is made out of! When things are good, then love is the best gift a person can receive, but when things go wrong, do you run away from a love that you have fought so hard for? Right-now love is being tested from everyone around you!! The question I want to ask is, after it is said, & done, will you love the same as before? Today, I have a lot of feeling running threw my soul, this person who I love, I think will not love me the same from this day forward! We ran into a problem, something personal about me came to the forefront, & now I feel that our love will not be the same! Just to get it out there, I have never been so happy with just one person! I use to think that I had to have two to three women around me at all times to balance out the room!~! Thanks to a special someone, I am happy just being with her!~! She is the most unexplainable woman I know, but that’s the fun part to me!~! To those who read this, & know me well, they would say that this woman has put some sort of root or spell on me; she is Haitian, if that makes any difference!@! It’s true, I am happy just going home, watching a movie, talking about nothing, or just watching her cook, or maybe I should say, watching her experiment with food!!! This question has been asked before; Is one women ever going to be enough for me? I have a answer for all those who want to know!@! One women for me is enough right-now in my life, I have some trust issues with some people from my past, these trust issues will not allow me to have to many people in my realm for a while to come! Looking back, I really don’t believe those who said they loved me!~ I have gained a new found respect for the word, & how it is used when in reference to the way you feel about me !@~ Right-now, I could care less if I never saw some of the faces from my past, some of you have scared me for life, & love should not hurt!~! I am a simple man, who only needs simple things, so that we don’t misunderstand each-other, my most basic needs are being address!@! There’s nothing that anyone can do for me right-now, that my love has not already sought to!~! I see you reading this, you seem shocked, your lip is dragging the floor, but it’s ok, I know it’s a hard pill to swallow!~! Questions may come to mind like; why was I not enough? Why did you ask things of me, that you didn’t ask of another? The answer is simple to me & it stays in my mind as well! Do you really want to know the answer? The answer is; that somethings should not be said. Everyone wants control over the heart, when the heart is the most predictable muscle in the body. It must beat to stay alive, & if you have no means of making that person you so call in love with, heart skip a beat or two, then you should really work harder on the love that you are giving! You have got to get into that persons mind as well, this is not a easy job to do, & most of the people you come to grow fond of, don’t find pleasure in someone digging into their mind!~ Me, myself, I will welcome you to my mind, but enter at your own risk, when you want a piece of this tool of mine, I can make you feel a lot of things that words can’t express!@! Is he crazy? The question most associated with me, but it don’t make me mad anymore because, me being crazy to you comes from your lack of understanding of this man, & not men in general! My love is being tested & I will not lose!~
Love is a basic dimension of human experience that is variously conveyed as a sense of tender affection, an intense attraction, the foundation of intimacy and good interpersonal chemistry, willing self-sacrifice on behalf of another, and as an ineffable sense of affinity or connection to nature, other living beings, or even that which is unseen. It manifests itself in feelings, emotion, behavior, thoughts, perception and attitude. It influences, underlies and defines major patterns in interpersonal relationships and self-identification.
Kingtay I
