Come For The Ride
- Conquest —– Honor —– Victory —– Energy
- Egocentrism —– Self confidence —– Conviction —– Anxiety
- Willpower —– Self assertion —– Hard control —– Discipline
- Inflexibility —– Success —– Wealth —– Recognition
- Impulsivity —– Command —– Bravery —– Pride
All these words represent my heart right-now!! You can’t begin to understand the things you have done to me for me to just wake-up, & truly realize that I have a multitude of untapped power waiting to exhale out my body! Yesterday I took a personal day without anyone to intrude in my thought process & I must admit that I found the strenth that I was looking for. I am a strong black man physically, but mentally my mind is just begining that journey of finding that hidden power of my eternal God! I am so good at giving advice, so why don’t I follow my own advice sometimes? I had to cry to free myself of these mental chains of hurt that I felt! I felt like I was not good enough for the people in my life & why did they want me around? Today I realized that I am too good for all of those people who I have put on a mountain high, only to make myself feel bad in the process! I have been walking around, not like the King I am, but like a dork with pitty type emotions. I don’t need pitty, I need UNDERSTANDING of my complex ways. I really don’t think that I will ever find anyone who truely understands me & I am not looking anymore! All I want is someone to except me for who I am. Who am I? That’s the question of the day! I really can’t say who I am, because I am changing everyday & even as we speak, but I can say that I want someone to go through all these changes with me. I know it’s hard to ask people to give-up what they believe in, to dedicate themselfs to the progress of another, but that’s why you chose people to be with you right? At lease that’s only part of what I think about why we chose the people we want in our lives. I hear women & men alike say that they want someone with their shit together, but what you must understand is that you have to take people for who they are. Me I consider myself the ultimate optical illusion!! I mean I know that I am a nice looking man but if you just looking on the outside that’s what you gone get, just a nice looking man , some arm candy, look alittle deeper & I am not rapped to tight & I am strong enough to say that I am working on that. I have very low self esteem that makes me gravitate toward women to make me feel a little better about myself. Today I know different, today I see the potential of all that I can be & all of what I am inside!! I see me for me & now I can ask with all my heart that you except me for me because I know who I am. Who am I? I will tell you the samething I said earlier I am still growing! GROW WITH ME!!!
Kingtay I
